Explaining the playlist 19

In light of my upcoming birthday next week, I have curated a playlist for my 20th birthday. But now I’ve realized, we haven’t gotten into the 19 playlist yet which was created almost a year ago and I deemed it important to explain how each song is important to me. It’s just that according to the musical movie Begin Again, “you can know a lot about the person just by looking at her/his playlist.” Non-verbatim. You can listen to the 19 playlist on Spotify here except for the Grouplove song while you read this. You’re welcome.

  1. You Are a Tourist – Death Cab for Cutie

The playlist opens up with this song from the Codes and Keys album. Now it’s a very special song because it reminded me of my fifteen-year old self which was a time of adolescence anxiety, find-yourself kind of desperation and sadness (it was summer), and life-altering decisions (post-high school, pre-college era). The song is about home and the alienation of home and you suddenly becoming a tourist to your own home. Also, you can say that the album is one of my most favorite albums of all time if not a Lana Del Rey album.

2.West Coast – Lana Del Rey

Released as the lead single for her second album, Ultraviolence, this dreamy guitar-heavy anthem for going to the beach and California is dark and grim. Somehow I’ve realized it is more fascinating to be in Hollywood, the white beaches of California, the gods and monsters that live there, and when it’s dark, it is sort of nastier than New York. Now, Lana del Rey isn’t for everyone but it’s enough to make her A-List famous.

3. Wonderwall – Oasis

All my life I’ve known this song from karaoke or radios until it became officially a favorite since I heard it in TV shows like My Mad Fat Diary (which features a lot of British music in the 80s and 90s) or HBO’s Girls. I hope everyone’s familiar with this one. I remember watching Lena Dunham, half-naked in her bathtub, murmuring the song or that scene when she rested her head on the toilet after puking. Sometimes I sing this song in the exact manner.

4. Two Fingers – Jake Bugg

Jake Bugg when he first came out with Lightning Bolt was a pleasant surprise. He has this weird, country deep voice that I really like. It’s unique and Two Fingers made his voice more pronounced and it’s catchy as fuck. One of the things I remember with this song is when I wash the dishes. Sometimes I finish the entire album while I’m singing his songs, twirling around in the kitchen—I’m that slow in washing the dishes.

5. Seaside – The Kooks

I’ve dedicated this song to Seaside Pints. This song reminds me of her and this is the song I’ve been repeating when I was by the sea one time, alone and I had to kill time.

6. VCR – The XX

Do you have those songs which will instantly make you feel sad and curl up in a ball like a fetus and contemplate? This is it. I sincerely love them from the bottom of my heart and I always remember myself lying in bed just listening to this song after a whole day of stressful academics.

7. Hood – Perfume Genius

This is my most recent discovery out of these 18 other songs. This song came from his pre-fame album, Put Your Back N 2 It. What I like about this is the sadness in it: “You would never call me baby, if you knew the truth.” Also, the music video’s powerful, featuring a gay porn star putting make up on Perfume Genius.

8. Chelsea Hotel No. 2 – Leonard Cohen

One of Lana Del Rey’s cover and poof! – becomes my new favorite. The song has more pronounced sadness and hopeless than some of the songs I’ve listed here and it ends with: “that’s all, I don’t even think of you that often.” I remember my mother saying she fell asleep to this song when I was playing it when we used to sleep on my grandmother’s bedroom. For me, when my family likes even just a song that I truly love, it means the world to me. Also, I like how I can sing this song so well. Most songs in this list are songs I can sing okay.

9. 400 Lux – Lorde

I have lots of favorite songs from Lorde but this is my all-time favorite. Lorde’s music reminds me of a simple neighborhood—a home for the teenage soul, where first times occur and the desire to get out of this place intensifies. Also, this is my go-to shower song. I really like songs I can sing well.

10. Blue Jeans – Lana del Rey

It’s too hard for me to pick one Lana del Rey song to include this year but I’ve discussed it with myself that I’ll just include a Lana del Rey song per year but since it’s my first playlist, I decided two is okay. The problem here is that Lana puts out an album every one or two years that it’s hard to pick one when almost every song is a favorite. Additionally, she has so many unreleased songs leaking year after year. So, yeah, this song was to me one of the best. It featured her well and it did great on the charts.

11. Feelin’ Good – Nina Simone

Nina Simone is one of Del Rey’s favorite artist. This is Nina’s most known song but I doubt that kids my age and my ethnicity listen to her. Del Rey has a tattoo Nina.

12. We Are Young – fun.

This to me is a song of freedom and energy. It’s probably one of my top three songs in this playlist. Before I listened to Oasis, The Beatles, and The Cure, fun. was my go-to boy band. I even burned the entire album from my computer so I can listen to it well on the stereo. Filed Under: Songs I Want to Die Listening To.

13. She Said – Longpigs

Discovered from the My Mad Fat Diary playlist. I’ve repeated this song once in the shower to make my playlist diverse because most of the time it’s just a bunch of female pop stars and the song grew on me. This is the only song I’ve known from them and probably the only song I remember. The TV series meant a lot to me and somehow this song represents the show to me.

14. Just Tonight – The Pretty Reckless

There was a point in my life when I was obsessed with Taylor Momsen. Seeing a rock band, which sometimes overlaps with metal rock, fronted by a woman is amazing to me and her music and its devilish themes appeal to me so much. This song is one of the few songs I can play in the guitar. I’ve been listening to this song since high school.

15. Teenage Dream – Katy Perry

I hate Katy Perry. There was a time where Lady Gaga and Katy Perry were neck and neck in awards and the top charts, and she always got the upper hand. But I loved the album Teenage Dream either way and this song, together with the music video, resonate freedom and youth. I just like to reminisce the time before my sexual awakening and how I was so curious about being a teenager and sex.

16. Everyone’s Gonna Get High – Grouplove

From the Girls soundtrack and this was Grouplove’s pre-fame era as well. When I refer to pre-fame, I’m talking about the time when they weren’t on any top charts or in anyone’s top albums, or mine’s. My other Grouplove favorite is Shark Attack. Like Wonderwall, this song reminds me of the show and New York.

17. Our Day Will Come – Amy Winehouse

Amy Winehouse is so special to me that I’m going to tattoo her name on my finger one day. That day will come. I remember listening to this song when I had summer classes in UP for LIRA, a poet fellowship and lecture and workshop series.

18. El Condor Pasa (If I Could) – Simon & Garfunkel

Along with any Lana del Rey song, El Condor Pasa is one of those songs that you wish you’d die to. It’s the theme song of Wild, which was a marvelous movie and ever since, the song felt like a journey. Filed under: songs to die to.

19. The Edge of Glory – Lady Gaga

Like Lana, I’ve struggled to pick just one song because I have fallen deeply in love with every one of her song but this song deals with death. Not necessarily a person but a death of something in the past to create glorious beginnings. When she played this on the Howard Stern show, I was moved to the bones.

The Patrick Awards!

I’m a huge arts and culture junkie, meaning I consume lots of media: books, tv, films, and music. And I’m here to discuss which made my year extremely better.



  • Honeymoon by Lana Del Rey
  • Empire Vol. 1 by Various Artists
  • 10,000 Forms of Fear by Sia
  • Emotions by Carly Rae Jepsen
  • Beauty Behind the Madness by The Weeknd

Nope, 25 by Adele did not made the list because it was a horrible one. There are a few tracks that stood out but I’d prefer 21 and 19 over 25 any other day.


  • Bitch Better Have My Money by Rihanna
  • Take Me to Church by Hozier
  • Electric Love  by BØRNS
  • High by the Beach by Lana Del Rey
  • Somebody by Natalie La Rose ft. Jeremih

Played Somebody for more than 100 times in one day. It was an addicting song and still is.



  • Mr. Robot
  • Transparent
  • Master of None
  • Empire
  • Sense8

The sci-fi show is about 8 individuals around the world who share some kind of skills and can communicate with each other.


  • Saturday Night Live
  • Orange is the New Black
  • The Amazing Race
  • American Horror Story: Hotel
  • Breaking Bad
  • The Mindy Project

Despite critics, the show’s third season was the show’s best. The first two episodes of the fourth one are really good as well. The sad winter finale was also a very great one. With 13 episodes left, I hope the show could gather more fans that it could. It is so underrated.



  • Before (trilogy) by Richard Linklater
  • Spy
  • Birdman by Alejandro Inarriut
  • The Matrix by The Wachowskis
  • The Imitation Game
  • Mad Max: Fury Road by George Miller

Damn, watched this twice consecutively and another a week later. Too cool, man. One for the books.


  • Looking For Alaska by John Green
  • Howl & Other Poems by Allen Ginsberg
  • Edad Medya: Mga Tula sa Katanghaliang Gulang by Jose F. Lacaba
  • The Vagina Monologues by Eve Ensler
  • Histories by Charlie Samuya Veric
  • Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn
  • Leche by R. Zamora Linmark
  • The Namesake by Jhumpa Lahiri
  • In Praise of the Stepmother by Mario Vargas Llosa
  • Why Not Me? By Mindy Kaling

Girl stepped it up and made it as warm and funny as her first book. Bitch deserved more.


Feminism Through Selena Gomez

Selena Gomez, singer, songwriter, Justin Bieber’s love of his life, and actress, whom I adored since Wizards of Waverly Place, yes, you guys–I dare say, a feminist or at least I think so.

Now, I’m not going to quote anything from The Norton Anthology of Literary Theory and Criticism which is the right thing to do actually. I’m just going to assume you know what feminism is all about and summarizing it to: the equality for both genders by empowering first the woman who has been oppressed for centuries and even until now in some cases (this explanation is for people who keeps on asking ‘why call it feminism if it’s about equality?’). Now, we have female presidents, CEOs, and security guards, thank God. Not only does this patriarchal society oppresses women but it also pressures men to resort to stereotypical machismo (abs, jaws, and H&M) that they themselves helped stigmatized.

I know it may seem like it but I’m not perfect so please feel free to shoot me some counterarguments in here and offer more perspectives here. More importantly, my subject-position is male so I’m vulnerable to inaccuracy but I hope I am offering a rich perspective on this. I’m not only trying to defend Selena Gomez in this blog entry but I’m also letting everyone know my strong feelings on feminism and gender-power relations. (I’m going to take a class on Gender and Media next semester, I’m stoked)

A bit of background: People had argued that Selena Gomez is an anti-feminist icon because of her songs that usually deal with being submissive to the man that she loves. In Come and Get It, it’s the lyric I’ll be sitting right here real patient… (a clear demonstration of a damsel in distress, an archetype made) with the chorus chanting When you’re ready, come and get it (na-na-na-na na-na-na-na). Lorde, member of Taylor Swift’s squad who had also had a small Twitter feud with Nicki Minaj about feminism as well, bashed Gomez in an interview regarding about this and the latter backlashed with non-verbatim “that’s not girl-power, you should support women.”

I have a problem with this feminism as a trope to support all women. Because not all women are good people. That’s it. There’s a bad fruit in every basket. So,  maybe I neither sided with Gomez and Lorde.


With the release of her new album Revival and my growing consciousness and concern to gender-relations, thanks to my professors and friends and no thanks to my family (who keeps on forcing the concept that colors have genders: blue is for boys and pink is for girls), I’ve realized something in her lyrics I want to look good for you, good for you, [moans/squeaks I’m not sure what sound she made] in her lead single Good For You. It’s a pretty sexy rad song about a girl who wants to look good for her boyfriend.

Also, Selena Gomez naked in her album cover doesn’t help in portraying a strong woman. Some argued it was for the look of vulnerability–an honest portrayal of a woman without bullshit, natural and all, loving her skin and being comfortable with it. Some said it was because she’s trying create some shock factor because well that’s what men wants and, what can I say, sex sells (and I deeply believe in this, more with Freud and this later). But who knows what it really means?

If you do not know, there are different waves or kinds of feminism. And I’m not sure how my counterarguments fall into a specific one.

First of all, regardless of gender, you actually submit yourself to the love of your life fully IF he or she is the love of your life so there’s really nothing wrong with being submissive. (Because, let’s face it, no two people can be equal–that’s why communism sucks–but  we have to offer equal opportunities either way).

If your argument is that she should be submissive because she is female, please go back to the Middle Ages where you belong. That is incredibly sexist because you’re basing your opinion because of the sex (gender, not the intercourse). Note this: if any opinion is based on the fact that it is because of he’s male or she’s female like say: he needs to learn construction because it’s masculine or I let her sit on the train because she’s female, that’s called sexism. How about use this other perspectives: he needs to learn construction because we need help in the house and I’ve got a lot in my plate right now to handle one more task or I let her sit on the train because she looks tired and I’m not.

Good For You is a song for her boyfriend–not necessarily for all men. A person wants to look good for the other person so they could get really horny and have intense sex. People do not realize this as much but the word ‘sexy’ refers to something that could make you want to have sex or something viable for sex.

Second point, feminism is all about the awareness of power. If Selena Gomez says Come and Get It, she’s not saying I’m a damsel in distress I need your help, she could be saying come and get it I’m horny I’m trying to seduce you – to manipulate you into sex – that’s feminism (though a little blunt). Again, this is all about awareness. She’s saying I know that you want to be with me so you have to earn it by coming to get me.

If a woman does not know that she is in fact being objectified say a sexy actress biting a cheeseburger in a sexy lingerie outfit and agrees doing the thing for money, she’s a victim of a patriarchal society taking advantage of her femininity, diminishing her femininity whose only purpose is sex. Now if a woman knows about her being objectified and yet projects herself as a sexy burger-eating half-naked-in-commericials girl, she’s using her femininity as a weapon whose purpose is to use her sex to manipulate men.

This leads us to the conclusion that we are not really that qualified to call if someone is being objectified if we do not contextualize anything, if we do not consider the tiny little details, based everything on what we see on the cover. We cannot really know  if Selena Gomez is a feminist or I’m just assuming that she is. I guess, how we conjure this assumptions is a reflection of how we really are. Maybe interpretations are always personal.

I have defended Lana del Rey against some claims that she is anti-feminist because of her lyrics: it’s you, it’s you, it’s all for you. Everything I do it’s all for you. And just apply the concepts I’ve shared with you to that.

Also, Same Old Love by Selena Gomez is in my top 5 song of the year. It’s uber-catchy.

Bye, guys. X


P.S. I will now take a shower.

Life Playlist


Weeks ago, I was tasked to prepare and burn a personal 18th birthday playlist into 50 CDs (yes, fifty, I am not even kidding) for my sister. Now I’ve decided I want one too partly because I don’t think I’m going to get a big birthday bash like her and I don’t think I want one either.

I’m not trying to be morbid or anything but I’ve always wanted a life playlist – you know – songs that will be played all throughout your funeral (which is going to be freaking amazing, my ashes are going to be around the rim and everybody’s drinking, celebrating my life and not mourning my death) and once those songs are stuck in their heads, they’ll be like “oh, I remember Patrick” in a Mini-stop or something one day. So I thought: why not now? I should just create one of my own now!

I should have done this like ages ago. I wish I’d done this every year on my birthday and every year has a special theme and once I’m 24 I would start to sell them and they would sell out because I became a big music connoisseur or something. Anyway, I’m starting this year (but I’m not giving you free CDs). I will be posting a playlist – a list of titles of songs I’ve loved and grown to. I hope you laboriously download them on piratebay or through a youtube downloader.

Note that this is not a simple list to make. Years of listening to music, from the radio in 2001 blaring Britney Spears to the 2015’s songs I discovered from Spotify, are making me terrified to finally pin down some of the best songs that have marked, scarred, and created my entire existence. Another note: I also wanted the songs to have some kind of unity thematically so please play the songs by order. They are in that order in some kind of way.

The title of this playlist is: 19, like the Adele album.

  1. You Are a Tourist – Death Cab for Cutie
  2. West Coast – Lana Del Rey
  3. Wonderwall – Oasis
  4. Two Fingers – Jake Bugg
  5. Seaside – The Kooks
  6. VCR – The XX
  7. Hood – Perfume Genius
  8. Chelsea Hotel No. 2 – Leonard Cohen
  9. 400 Lux – Lorde
  10. Blue Jeans – Lana del Rey
  11. Feelin’ Good – Nina Simone
  12. We Are Young – fun.
  13. She Said – Longpigs
  14. Just Tonight – The Pretty Reckless
  15. Teenage Dream – Katy Perry
  16. Everyone’s Gonna Get High – Grouplove
  17. Our Day Will Come – Amy Winehouse
  18. El Condor Pasa (If I Could) – Simon & Garfunkel
  19. The Edge of Glory – Lady Gaga

Before the month ends, I’ll be posting ‘Lolita’ in Hongkong. My blog entries for next month are already being set up so stay tune. I’ll be posting at least twice a week. Comment anything below.

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